Friday, August 31, 2007
Die la!! Sian..
2:54 AM
Back aching like hell.. Even backbone oso kana liao.. Tio insect bites n coughing like mad... Wad the hell.. Tekong macham a place full of virus.. Juz 2 days in field n this is wad i get.. Whole day carry my wife (M16S1 rifle) and my LBV (light battle vest).. Wad a torture.. In addition, we cant on our torches at nite!! How the hell am i goin to find my tent in the jungle when i cant even see a thing!! Somemore there are at least more than 60++ tents in there!! Si beh sian!!! Get mi out of hell!!
Saturday, August 25, 2007
1 month have passed!!
9:18 PM
Its been 1 month since i went to tekong!! Passed my range test finally after so much worries.. 1 down 2 to go.. IPPT, sure fail T-T.. IFC (Individual field craft), hmmm, duno liao.. sitting on the mud really sux, especially during ur out field n it rains!! Stupid weather!! Curse the weather sia.. But had a fun time there... Still very du lan wif some ppl though, especially does who like to KPKB juz to irritate ppl.. How childish.. So i juz ignored those fuckers n make my life happier abit..
Oh ya one more thing, WHO EVER TRIES TO HARM OR MAKE MY "CHILDRENS" SAD, THEY WILL HAVE A GRENADE STUFF IN THEIR MOUTH!! AND I MAKE SURE IT BLOWS U UP!!
To my "childrens": If gt any problem, call the "SAF" hotline!! LOL!! which is my number.. LOLzz.. =P
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Damn Tired..
2:39 PM
Si beh sian ar.. BMT so boring.. Not enuf slp to the core.. I m so tired.. I really need a good rest.. A rest frm everything.. But i cant.. Unless i m dead, or else everything will still haunt mi..
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Army song (Edited)
9:18 PM
To your left,
To your left,
To your left right,
LEOPARD
Left right,
PLATOON 2
Left right,
WARRIORS.
To your left,
To your left,
To your left right,
LEOPARD
Left right,
PLATOON 2
Left right,
WARRIORS.
Trying to be soldiers,
Fight for our land,
Once in our life,
Two years of our time.
Have you ever wondered,
Why must we serve,
Because we bo bian,
And we lan lan have to serve have to serve.*Highlighted wordings are the edited parts.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Officially dead...
1:22 PM
My mood is still the same.. Very depress no matter how i think of the positive side.. No longer the cheerful mi.. Y?!?! Where have the other side of mi gone to? Dead? I think so ba.. The sad n depressed mi emerges frm no where n murdered the cheerful side.. I duno how to get back the cheerful side anymore.. Unless . . . Haiz.. Its impossible.. I m juz imagining things will go the way i hope to but it will nvr!! Y do i have this type of treatment.. Y cant i get wad i wan for once.. Y Y Y!!!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Not worth!
4:05 PM
To all my frens out there, i m not worth the care u guys gave mi.. U guys treat mi too good n yet sometimes i still bully u all.. Wad a jerk i m.. I take things for granted n did not cherish them.. All hope seems lost but u all came to aid mi.. Thx!!
I am juz feeling too lonely n left out.. In army, i tried to keep up wif the others but i cant.. I let my platoon down.. At times, i wish killing wasn't an offense, some idiots kept provoking mi juz for their fun.. When they are provoked, its seems like everyones fault that they are angry.. Gangsters so wad?!
To be honest wif u guys, i did get so depressed n stressed up till my tears dropped when i was in tekong.. I cant do anything abt my problems but to juz bear wif the sufferings.. Thats y the only solution that came across my mind was death.. But the thing now i cant let go is ppl who are close to mi.. How i wish i could be free frm all this although i noe everyone will have this experience.. Sometimes i juz cant take it anymore.. If i were to be gone, do nt feel sad or sorry for mi.. I noe who treat mi good n who's not..
Still miserable
12:06 AM
Duno y, i feel so sad, so depressed, so down... As if the world has left mi all alone, no1 i can tok to, trust or even speak to.. I hate myself for coming to dis world, the suffering that i have been thru all these years... I always have to keep my emotions up in front of everyone.. I may seem happy but to be exact, i m not..
Today things did nt go my way, everything screwed up, every single thing!! I so fucking hate it... I wish some1 or even something juz take mi away frm this miserable world, to a place of no suffering, no misery n no worries... I wish i could juz die at this moment..
Thursday, August 9, 2007
Life: Miserable
11:57 PM
Came back frm tekong after 2 weeks of confinement on 08/08/2007. Dun really like it in there, hate it hate it hate it.. Sometimes juz feel like ending my life soon. Everyone in my bunk call back home n to girlfriend, for mi, juz call home n thats it.. So boring n so tiring..
09/08/2007, Watched 2 movies in a row, Rush Hour 3 n Secrets (by Jay Chou). Din really have the mood i used to have last time when i m out wif friends. Feel so sian.. Always helping others wif their stuff when i cant even help myself.. So many problems to solve n yet no time n no one can help..
Hate my life n fuck this world!! The only reason i m living on is because of my family.. If they are gone, i dun see any point to continue my life on this world..
